Sometimes I feel like I am actually going offtrack.
I am being too much focused on life that I have forgot how to enjoy the life anymore. I am not saying that I don’t smile anymore or make jokes or maybe get into some unnecessary talk anytime. I do all those things.
However, am I really being me anymore?
“No, Allah knows, Not at all!”
I did things I like and enjoyed that doing a lot. I have earned a lot. Now, maybe I am too focused on something which is making me doing things which I really don’t wanna do or maybe not enjoy doing.
I wanna live up to my life. I wanna be that person I have always wanted to be. What seems to be so far now!
I am really praying to be me again. I wanna smile and smile full, not just smile for smiling’s sake. I need to come around fast enough, I don’t wanna loose me ever again. I want to be happy, happy for me. Smile and smile for me! Be with me and be for me! I wanna be me again!