I want to.

I want to talk to you.
I want to call you, call you as loud as possible.
I want to pick up the phone and dial your number.
I can assure you I do that a hundred times every day.
I want to say everything I want to say to you.
I see people talking with each other, pouring their heart out.
I want to pour mine too but to you.
I want to see those devious smile once again.
I want to give up everything one more time to see your face, once only.
I want to ease the pain of my heart when it beats.
I want to stop the shouting of my every cells to call you.
I want to decide to finally call you.
I want to forget the feelings which lead me to remember you when I breath.
When My heart tries really hard to forget you I want to cut each of my veins which only flow because they know you exist, exist somewhere in the world.
I suggest others to not to lean on to the past, I myself am living in the past.
When I open my eyes, I see you.
When I close them, I close them with your picture enclosed.
I want to control my love towards you by loving myself.
As much as I love me, I know I am loving you more.
I want to hear your voice one more time.
Maybe you will say the hardest words of the world to make me miserable,
I will want to hate you basing on those words.
Trust me I want to do that.
I want to do that harder than anything else in my life.
As hard as I try to hate you, my heart wants to love you a little bit more.
Now, what I am to do to relief myself from all those senses,
I want to my senses to come to their senses.
I want to love you more but love me a little extra.
I want to acknowledge my love to you as the love to my existence.
I want to feel pride for my love.
I want to recognise the toughest love, the unconditional love for you as my own gratitude to me.
I want to let you know whatever happened or is going to happen, my love to you has never been less, never will be.
I want you to know I take pride in my love.
A heart always knows a heart loving so much.
I just want to know my heart.

Published by Tahmina Mili

I am a dreamer. Always dream to have a new and beautiful life. I always try to live happily ever after. There are no bad vibes in me. To me, the world is the most beautiful and honest place to live in. "The bad is not bad until we make it bad" and "Smile is the beauty of life", are two of my most favorite sentences of all time. I live believing in them. I am proud to be me and love being me all the time.

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