Love

Love makes you vulnerable. Love makes you weak,

Though you fall in love every week.

You say, “Love is beautiful. Love is true, Love is all.”

Though every other week, you fall.

You fall so hard, so hard to stand,

You shout out, “See my Friend!

Love will serve you happiness, make you ready for the end.”

“Love gives you nothing but the pain.

Love ditches you, stabs your back over again.

Love kneads salt over your cut.

Loves closes the ways to life, leaves the door shut.

Love drinks your blood, makes you white.

Love takes your conscience, you can’t see wrong or right.”

You smile and reply, “Oh my Dear!

Loves makes you human, makes you fear.

Fear to die, fear of being alone,

Fear to be a man too much grown.

Love teaches you to watch your feet.

Love shows you how to greet.

Love gives you the power to break free,

to fly away, hike the mountains or climb up a tree.

Love let you do what you like,

Love shakes your life with a little spike.

If you never love, you would never know.

Love will shine your life with sunny glow.”

For the Sake of Name

Name is the first thing we learn about a human. Name carries the most of the heavy lifting in life. I like to have a good name sometimes. Name for me is a way of ;letting people know that I exist in the world. I am here. I not from any alien planet. Though sometimes I consider myself that I must belong from the a distant planet where the name does not consider so important. In this world if you want to live you mush have a name. Now there are many different types and sizes of name. Names are different in many ways; geographically, country-wise, continent based, religion based, area of living based, street based, era based as well.

The first visible difference in names are religion based. Muslims have their own ways of naming their children. They try to follow the Islamic name pattern. A name has to have a good and Islamic meaning. It has to carry the weight of religious value. For example, if someone is named Rahim, this name is stated in Quran and is one name of the Almighty Allah. The meaning of this word is Kind and Compassionate towards mankind. There are many other names like Rahman, Karim, Malik, Quddus, Salam, Aziz, Jabbar and so on. These names are the most precious name according to Muslims. They are very honorable names as well. THough nowadays the trend has changed entirely. The Muslim new era wants the name to be cool and Islamic as well, like, Saad, Saifee, Safeena, Turas, Tanvir, Toa, and many more. All these names are Islamic and have great meanings. Name trend has also taken the leap of the new era still following the religious path too.

The second one is geographically. Names are different in different countries, because some of the countries are called Western and some are Eastern, some are African (Continent wise). Names in the Western side of the World are like that Adam, Roger, Christina, Sophie, William, Barry, Terry, Trent, and many many others. I do not understand the trend in naming Western. Some here also follow the Bible for naming, like Joseph, Andrew, Asher, Jacob, Danielle and other names also. These biblical names carry the burden of good omen from the Bible.

Names in the Eastern Asia is based on the birth dates, month and the year of the child. It is basically form by their own language and the names they are called the days or the dates and the months as well as the year. I can understand this trend. It belongs entirely on the child. The child can never complain about the name, because it has been made from the beginning of its own existence in the world. I admire this naming process.

The last but not not least visible naming process to me is the street name. The street name is one kind of slang name given to the person from friends or relatives to make the child’s life name-wise a little loving or sometimes funny, sometimes easier to call. Anyway, this naming process literally make things unofficial. The name are mostly known to the school friends nor area friends or neighbors, family members and relatives. This also carries the mere characteristics of the very person. It is not a good way of naming. However, it exists everywhere.

This long and boring topic has to come to an end soon. I have only one thing to say to the reader of this boring topic “Please continue doing whatever you are doing for the sake of your name.” Someone has to lift the name, No!

What I did Tonight

I am an enthusiastic movie watcher. I watch many movies in a day of my free time. Not always I watch the movie to entertain myself. The first instinct of watching movie is to learn from that.

Tonight I watched “Gully Boy” a Bollywood movie directed by Zoya Akhter. This inspired me a lot. I am a dreamer. You can call me a day dreamer as well. I have thousands of dreams. Many things I wanna do. Almost all the dreams are to change the state of my life. The state I am now in is not too poor, though I want to improve this to a thousand times upper level. I am thousand times now. I wanna climb higher than that.

I might sound like a greedy person. I am greedy to change my life. I have learned the hard way that if you wanna change the life you have to change the way you treat it. You have to fight so hard for your dream to become a truth.

I have dreamed to come abroad for higher education. It took a long time for me to convince my father and my sisters to realize how serious I was to fulfill my dream. Finally, they understood and gave me the best help they could give me. They support me all the time since then.

I wonder (not complaining) that if I had their support 10 years ago, where I could reach right now. If only I could take science group, my passion would have been taken a different turn. Although those regrets are not going to do any good to me and my dream now. I have traveled a long way. My sisters and my father have my back now. My only way is forward now.

Like the movie “Gully Boy”, Murad has fought back and regained his trust on his capability. He has shown that only diligence can lead to the winner. A strong determination will give you the success you want. I loved this movie a lot.

To Mother

I am not an only child. I am one of the six children my parents have. All of my parent’s children are girls, including me. I use the phrase “including me”, because I am not like girls. My characteristics are more of a black sheep of the family type, always have been the outcast and seldom listened to my parents (not willingly of course). I have always been an extremely extrovert child. I liked to play outside, go places where we were not at allowed to go, gang up with the naughty boys of the locality. My parents were very worried. At that time, I never could tell that they were worried or just telling me to not to do those stuff because I was a girl. Now, I can tell how they would have felt when I refused to listen to them. They must have been very hurt. I am not sure that I still can tell the entire thing. I think I am going off topic again. Yesterday was the ‘Mother’s day’ in the UK. Every one was talking about it.

My colleagues were talking about their moms. I remembered my Mom too. I lost my Mom nearly 8 years ago. She was the most wonderful and talented woman I have ever met in my life. When I was young, my Mom used to hit me a lot to control me. I hated her for that. Maybe I hated her for a long time. I never understood why she hit me. I know now that if my child becomes 1% percent naughty as I was in my young age, I would have killed my child thousand times. My Mom used to teach us morality and humanity, how to be respectful to others, how to be a self-sufficient girl. At my young age, I was like always refusing to learn anything at all. Now, whenever I remember what my Mom said to me and my sisters, I have no shame to admit that all her saying are very educational and so very important in life.

My Mom taught me how to respect others and why to respect people. She used to say “If you don’t respect others, no one will respect you. If you don’t be kind to others, no one will be kind to you. You have to show sympathy and feel empathy to become a human. The world is too tough to be selfish. Show compassion, people will be compassionate to you.” My Mom was hell of a tough woman. In our society, taking care of a family of 8 members with 6 female children must have been so difficult. She did take awesome care of us. She taught us everything. She never went to school or I could say she never had any institutional education. Though she had given us the best education possible.

My father worked all day long. We only could meet my father either very late at night or in the weekends. We were afraid of him too. Still I am afraid of my father. Mom was the safest and most loving place for us. I was always depended on her almost for everything. Her intellect gave us the sense of living in this rough and tough world easily and freely. I am writing this today even though my understanding about the teachings of my Mom has developed in my mind very recently. As I have expressed earlier that I was and still am the black sheep of the family. Unconventional thinking and being a relentless being were my specialty. The people who are close to me can or definitely will vouch for that. My Mom must had been hurt many times by me. I still can’t imagine how much I have caused pain in her life. After loosing her forever, I realize I need her more than I would care to admit. Actually, I am surely admitting that I am nothing at all without my Mom.

Today I live my Mom inside of me. I know what she had tried to teach me all along. She always knew after her there will be no one with me. With my characteristics, my temper, attitude, my ego, my carelessness, never one person will cope up.

I miss my Mom the most. There is not a single moment pass by when I don’t want my Mom back in my life. Night before yesterday, I was too tired to eat anything. If my Mom was alive she would have been ready with the food all along and when I would have reached home and freshened up she would have fed me by her own hand. I want the time when she kept sleeping on her bed I would have gone to her and kissed her belly. When I am too tired or not feeling well, I want to go to sleep beside her and put my head on her hand. I want her fingers on my head brushing my hair. I want to smell her skin and find the most positive aura around her. I want to tell her that I love her the most in this world. Without her I am just barely living.

On this ‘Mother’s Day’, I really wish to tell her that I need her; want her back; am suffering a lot without her; my life owes everything to her. I love my Mom and I promise that I will keep her alive in me always and forever!

Situation about the Corona Virus

The new pandemics has made the humanity think other options so easily. In few months, it reaches the mass destruction all over the world. Almost everyone is much afraid of dying of Corona rather than any other diseases. Not only this disease can spread from the living human body, it can also spread from the dead body as well. It better be careful than sorry.

The best and probably the only good news about this disease is that is not airborne. It spreads by coming in contact with the COVID-19 Virus. The name of the virus seems a little funny though it has deadly impact on human, maybe on animals too (which I am not very much sure of). Every one is talking about this nowadays. Countries are going for the lock-down for the sake of protecting people from the spread of the disease more. I will be lying if I say I am not afraid. I am terrified inside. I live far from my family and my family has very bad history of health issues. It says the people who are sick are most likely get affected easily. The best way to say it would be who are most symptomatic are most contagious to this virus.

I am not 100% religious though I have too much strong believe in Almighty Allah (The Creator of the World and the Human according to Islam). I pray for every soul on earth to be safe and secure from this deadly virus. Take care of yourself and look after your loved ones.

Here is a copy paste version of online article talking about how this virus transmit from the affected person to the new bearer:

How COVID-19  Spreads

Person-to-person spread

The virus is thought to spread mainly from person-to-person.

  • Between people who are in close contact with one another (within about 6 feet).
  • Through respiratory droplets produced when an infected person coughs or sneezes.

These droplets can land in the mouths or noses of people who are nearby or possibly be inhaled into the lungs.

Can someone spread the virus without being sick?

  • People are thought to be most contagious when they are most symptomatic (the sickest).
  • Some spread might be possible before people show symptoms; there have been reports of this occurring with this new coronavirus, but this is not thought to be the main way the virus spreads.

Spread from contact with contaminated surfaces or objects

It may be possible that a person can get COVID-19 by touching a surface or object that has the virus on it and then touching their own mouth, nose, or possibly their eyes, but this is not thought to be the main way the virus spreads.

How easily the virus spreads

How easily a virus spreads from person-to-person can vary. Some viruses are highly contagious (spread easily), like measles, while other viruses do not spread as easily. Another factor is whether the spread is sustained, spreading continually without stopping.

The virus that causes COVID-19 seems to be spreading easily and sustainably in the community (“community spread”) in some affected geographic areas.

Community spread means people have been infected with the virus in an area, including some who are not sure how or where they became infected.

You can read the full article from the following link:

https://www.cdc.gov/coronavirus/2019-ncov/prepare/transmission.html